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New England 2013 – Part II, Provincetown, Massachusetts, “Just the tip”

For our second major stop on our New England 2013 tour we made the short two hour drive from Newport, RI to the very tip of Cape Cod to visit Provincetown, MA. Matt being more familiar with New England made the executive decision that Provincetown had the most to offer of the small Cape Cod towns, and from my limited experience I’d have to agree with his assessment.

Provincetown or “P’town” as it’s affectionately referred to by locals, is famous for its diverse culture and is a popular vacation destination for the LGBT community. I’m not really sure how it came to be that way, nor do I care. The atmosphere was that of acceptance, which I found to be quite refreshing and everyone was friendly. The main drag in Provincetown is called Commercial Street and runs parallel to the bay. It is lined with bars, shops, local color, and limited drama. There’s something to be said about a beach town that’s not laden with half naked people, hordes of children, or obnoxious frat boys.


Commercial Street, Provincetown, Massachusetts

The drive out to P’town was easy going. We stopped at a place called Box Lunch in Wellfleet on our drive and had some wrap style seafood sandwiches. The lobster roll was as delicious as expected. We drove down to the pier at Wellfleet and had our lunch while admiring the view. It wasn’t a bad little detour but other than amazing views and one or two restaurants Wellfleet didn’t seem to have as much to offer as Provincetown. 

A few musts in P’town:

  • Our choice of lodging was perfect. Benchmark Inn is a little B&B within walking distance of Commercial Street and everything there is to do in P’town. The owners were welcoming and attentive without being overly intrusive. The European style breakfast with homemade bread and hand selected cheeses was a welcome break from the “continental” breakfast we were offered at the other stops along our trip. I would highly recommend this place and I fully intend to return. Matt and I spent a lot of time just hanging out on our deck enjoying the view.


The view from Room 7, Benchmark Inn, Provincetown, MA

  • Dolphin Fleet Whale Watch was a fun touristy day outing and we actually saw a few whales and sharks. I’m glad we had the experience but I feel like this is one of those things I’d likely never do again.
  • Bicycle rental was very reasonable. We rented bikes for $20 each for a half day and road out to Race Point Beach. I’d suggest packing a bag and a lunch and spending the day at the beach before heading back. The trail is roughly 7 miles total and there are some hills. It was a breeze for Matt but I definitely struggled a little. A stop at the beach is a nice way to break up the trip.


Me & Matt at Race Point Beach, Provincetown, MA

  • If you get sick of seafood as I’m ashamed to say I did, El Mundo was a great little Mexican treat with authentic margaritas, decent queso dip, and awesome service. They even worked seafood into a few of the specials if you’re into that sort of thing.
  • If you’re in the market for a nautical themed tattoo, piercing, or other abomination, I can’t say enough about the service at Mooncusser Tattoo; friendly, welcoming, and non-judgmental. Don’t ask me why I know this.
  • On our last night in town we mingled with some locals at Old Colony Tap bar and “restaurant.” Although we didn’t eat there, the beers were cold and fast and the service was friendly. The bartender is a bona fide Cape Cod native whose family has owned the bar since 1954. The only downside of this place is that I wish we would have discovered it on the first night instead of the last. That and the slanted floors.

A few disappointments (if you can even call it that):

  • I’ll have to admit as much as everyone talked up The Lobster Pot I was expecting more. It wasn’t one of my favorite meals and the portions were way too big. From what I remember though, the prices were reasonable and the service was good. Oh, and I did really like the Clam Chowder.
  • I was moderately annoyed with the service at The Squealing Pig. They advertise themselves as an Oyster House and yet the bartender gave us attitude when he had to shuck our oysters. It definitely gave me a bad taste for the place.
  • We happened into a place called Fanizzi’s one night and I thought the crowd was either really odd or really old. It’s hard to say from my notes. It could be the fact that I was drunk when we got there and knocked a candle over when we sat down. No, I didn’t start a fire, but it did get a little awkward after that.

Next up – Boston

The Pursuit of Happiness

I had an epiphany of sorts last week while packing my one bedroom apartment for my upcoming move, and watching Pretty in Pink for the 1,546th time. Like most people, I have always been caught up in the idea of finding happiness. If I get the perfect date to prom I will be happy; If I leave my small town I will be happy; If I get a college education and a decent paying job I will be happy; If I have a husband and children I will be happy; If I have a great apartment I will be happy; If I reach my goal weight I will be happy. I must do X,Y,Z to be happy!

As I packed up what is left of my memories of the first 33 years of life, and contemplated why Andie would ever choose Blane over Duckie, I realized something that never occurred to me before — happiness has always been within me. This might not be groundbreaking for some, but I have spent so much time focusing on worry, stress, and heartbreak that I hadn’t really allowed myself to see the beauty in the little things until very recently. It’s still hard for me to admit that I suffer from depression and anxiety. I don’t think I ever realized how badly I was suffering until I wasn’t suffering anymore. I thought those feelings were normal; that if I couldn’t have exactly what I wanted, and control every aspect of my life, I would never be happy. Think about that for a minute. It was, and still is, exhausting.

I realize finding happiness within yourself is not a new concept; I’ve seen the inspirational quotes on Tumblr. But it didn’t really resonate with me until I looked back over all my memories, both painful and happy, and realized that if I don’t enjoy life, moment by moment, I am going to miss it. Life doesn’t start when you attain every goal you ever laid out for yourself, it starts when you’re born. Unfortunately, I wasn’t born into a very happy time for my family and I think on some level that burden always sat with me. Once we get over *this* life struggle, things will be happy. But life struggles never really cease. It’s the moments in-between, or the unexpected joys that come from those struggles, that make up our happiness.

It’s my baby book that nobody ever filled out;

Baby Book

It’s the first CD I ever owned;


It’s embarrassing pictures of my friends from middle school;


It’s that time, “I Got Absolutely Pissed” in London in 1994;


It’s the fortune at the bottom of this Bazooka Joe wrapper that I found pertinent at the time;


It’s this family Christmas when we all had really bad hair but were all still together;

Family Christmas

It’s a day that brought America together;


It’s the memories from my first wedding;

First wedding

It’s a random sombrero;


It’s an undeveloped water camera from our trip to Belize;

Underwater Camera

It’s this last birthday card I ever received from my grandmother;

Bday Card

It’s this pack of condoms from 2004 that, for whatever reason, were never necessary;

Old Condoms

It’s all the days we spent together on the beach before she passed away;

Old Scopes

It’s whatever I was doing in this picture;


It’s my new extended family;


It’s so many other moments in life that seemed minute at the time but still bring a smile to my face. Now that I realize that, I want to slow down this life and enjoy every god-damn second of it. I am so lucky to have such carrying, forgiving people in my life, hobbies that a love, a stable job, and so many other wonderful things I may not even realize in this moment. I hope I can maintain this outlook for as long as humanly possible.

With Love,


The Yoga Project – Part II, Nature Photo Shoot

This weekend as the second part of my personal yoga journey I set out with my friend Dave of J. David Photography to capture some yoga poses in nature. For our first photo shoot together we ventured to the Virginia side of Great Falls Park early(ish) Sunday morning – though probably not as early as Dave would have liked. It should be noted that if you’re attempting any sort of alone time/meditation/peace, it cannot be accomplished in Great Falls after 11:00AM on a weekend. In an attempt to avoid as many people as possible we hiked a couple miles just north of the overlook area, which is much less populated. The foliage on this April weekend was not as green and lush as either of us had hoped, but the weather was spectacular.

The shoot itself proved challenging for me. This was my first attempt at yoga on uneven ground in any formal capacity and I wasn’t nearly as capable as my ego would have liked. It’s also less than peaceful to have a camera in your face while trying to hold a pose – as you can tell by my apparent scowl in most of the pictures. My modeling career obviously would have been short lived. It was a bit frustrating until I became comfortable with my surroundings and reminded myself that yoga isn’t about perfection. Here are a few of my favorite shots and poses from the shoot.

Tree on a tree

I call this one Tree on a tree. I was literally standing on a fallen tree branch. WHY AM I SO SERIOUS!?

Side plank

Side Plank – Dave did some pretty cool black-n-white/lightening effect with this one, (that’s the technical term). It’s one of my favorites.


Meditation – Ok, so I’m fake meditating for the photo, but how peaceful do these surroundings look?

Warrior one

Warrior One Overlooking the Falls. I’m channeling The Seven.

Wild Thing

Wild Thing — You make my heart sing.


Dancer Facing the Falls — One of my favorite yoga poses.

Headstand - split legs

Tri-pod Headstand Variation – How can you not smile when your crotch is in someone’s face? #TWSS

Side Crow

Side Crow – I love, love, love any pose that challenges arm strength.

Twisting Down Dog

Twisting Down Dog — Twisting out the margaritas from Saturday.

Headstand - Pike

Headstand Pike – It’s a really fun pose to practice and great for the abs!

As you can tell from the progression of the photos, once I started to have fun with it I felt more at ease with the process. Still, there were a few positions that I can do on a mat that I had difficultly holding for a camera, such as Hummingbird or any handstand variation really. I do have some pretty gnarly bruises from my multiple attempts though — so that’s something. Hopefully, if we venture out again I will have had time to work on these more challenging poses. And maybe we can find some flat ground to work with!

All in all, I am happy with the results and I had a great time challenging myself. Thanks again to Dave for his patience and awesome photography skills. I can’t wait to see how he does at my Mom’s wedding next month.

Peace, love, and #alltheinversions,